Ugh, such a crappy day. You know those ones? Where it just feels like you’re getting a pile of poo dumped on you, over and over. You start to get rid of the poo, and more just gets dumped on. It sucks.
It’s smelly, and heavy, and depressing.
That’s what today feels like. Just crappy. Shitty. Poo-tastic.
I hate days like today, because being a person who struggles with depression, these days tend to seep down really far. It takes a while to get the yucky feeling to go away, and find some happiness again.
I don’t find comfort in things like food or people – most of the time, those just make it worse. Walking and exercise help, but I can’t today, for other reasons. So I’m left with music, which even today, is simply acting like a band-aid.
That’s the really scary part – usually music snaps me out of it quick and helps heal everything. Not today. Today, the crap is so monumental, music can’t even make its way through.
I really just can’t wait for this day to be over. It’s got a long way to go though, and I don’t know if I can take it.