Monthly Archives: July 2015

Legal Wedding Anniversary, 2015

So, yesterday was my legal wedding anniversary with my hubby.

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I specify legal, because technically, we eloped.  In May several years ago, we decided to do things our way, and got married.  A few months later, we made it legal, so he could claim me as a dependent for the military.  We celebrate our wedding anniversary in May, but always stop to appreciate the day we made it legal.

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It got me thinking though – if we ever decided to do a vow renewal (something we’ve always talked about), which day would we choose?  Would we choose another day altogether?  Should we let the July date drop, since it doesn’t matter much to us?  Should that date matter more to us than it does?

I usually think the same things every year, and after a few days, forget about it, and move on with our life.  I can already feel myself shifting past the point of caring enough to answer and of those questions, and highly doubt this will be the year any of them get answered.

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Really, it all comes down to this: I’m glad we’re married, and it’s nice to have a legal paper saying so.  That’s all it is – a piece of paper signifying the government’s stamp of approval, but still.  It’s official some how 🙂

So, in the end, this year is the same as all the years past.  Happy Anniversary, Ken!  I’d make all the same choices over again, and can’t wait for more adventures to come 🙂  Love you.

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I wonder what it would be like…

To not have to cry.

To not have to hurt.

To not have to wonder.

To have more Faith,

and less doubt.

To trust with strength,

and not get pulled down.

To see a roller coaster,

and not imagine negatives.

To have a positive mindset,

instead of poisonous cynicism.

To not have to be completely perfect,

in order to be successful and wanted.

To smile without pain,

and feel pure joy.

To feel beautiful and wonderful

in my own uncomfortable skin.

To feel alive and free,

without worry of failing.

To truly enjoy life,

and truly enjoy death…

instead of hating them both.

I wonder…

Feeling Overwhelmed, Blah, and Generally Meh

I’m having such a blah rut.  I’m overwhelmed, and there’s not really a way out, other than to keep trudging on.

We all get like that, right?  I hope so…I hope it’s not just me.

I keep trying to give myself pep-talks.  “Keep soldiering on, girl!  You can do it!”

 You Can Do It!

Because really, there’s a ton of stuff on my shoulders.  I know, everyone has stuff on their shoulders, and in the grand scheme of things, my stuff is pretty minimal.  In my life though, for me, it’s overwhelming.  Others could and do handle it just fine, and that’s awesome!  I’m tired though, and getting tired of treading waves.

 We're Dead!

Every day, I’ve got a ton to do.  My guys need me constantly.  Housework and chores pile up.  Work won’t get done unless I do it.  Books won’t write themselves.  Dishes won’t clean themselves, and animals won’t take care of themselves.  It’s up to me.  I’m the housewife, trying to build up a couple of businesses.  I asked for it, I’m just not enjoying it at the moment.  I will, and it’ll be worth it…I hope.

 Nervous Frustrated

What do you do, to pick yourself up?  How do you keep motivated?  Do you feel overwhelmed often, or are you one of those peppy people who have a seemingly perfect life?  Let me know – I love comments!

Thanks for reading.  It helps to have an outlet 😉

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